H.O.W

so, revelation at PrayerMeeting just.

H.O.W

when we ask God, “how?” maybe His answer comes when we go back to or have re-aligned ourselves with a HeartOfWorship

hmm.. and it’s your name too, dad. haha maybe kungkung is very wise/God-led when he named you….

or it could have been a funny story..

kungkung: his name is Chai Sze..how,ah? (to mama possibly)

nurse/naming officer person: ooh Chai Sze How nice also

tee.hee.hee. (happy advanced fathers’ day!)

blogs take 2 and words

was doing quiet time today and it hit me… like came upon me i guess:

the power of words being spoke out into an atmosphere.

maybe that is why people blog. because maybe deep down we believe that if we put it out there somewhere it carries a bit more weight than when left in the closet of our hearts… doesn’t really matter who reads it as long as someone does.. and if someone who we’re meant to ‘hint happen to chance upon it…’ then it could potentially be a bonus…

speaking into the atmosphere…. words carry weight and echoes in all eternity..

hmm …

*yay RENT

ramblings of a childinneedofahug/international unistudent

i suddenly miss home verymuchly as i browse through the photos on the YDM blog.

i realise how much i miss home and also how i wish i could be back there with everyone else.. but im not..

surely God must have a reason to put me where i am now

“where am i meant to be/what am i meant to do/ what is God’s will for me? “  for now,it is where God has place you

what does it mean when someone asks a pastor to pray for them? does this mean that their prayers aren’t heard?- something i was thinking about as i read Dr. David Y. Cho’s book on the Fourth Dimension… good stuff still learning

many things to do. is time a factor? or is discipline the biggest factor of all?

too many

seems like a lot are happening around me now… is it too much??

act on first instincts or in faith?

hmm.. i think for me this is like a constant challenge? like i get a feeling to do something and then i have this intense 20-second battle.. should i? should i not? should i? should i not?

not anythign unusual… but this week more than times in the past, i’ve foudn out that i would have been  better off if i had done the first-instinct thing like for the simplest e.g. take an umbrella or go to the lecture and sit somewhere specific… or buying coffee or no….or not getting up to get notes because i know it will be passed on to me… or staying in the lecture hall for 30 seconds more instead of rushing out.. and even with re: to eatinginlibraries  hmm.. just wondering why though.. but yea maybe there is a lesson.. or is everything just so happen?

anyway there is OCF soon and i will be on PA -helping.. oooo exciting

loving unconditionally

what does that truly mean? does it mean loving despite the feelings of annoyance and sometimes disgust?

i admit sometimes i find it hard (up to the point i need to pep-talk myself into it and almost-forcefully-convinced myself that it is a responsibility) to love people who reminds me of who i used to be- naive, whiny, negative, cynical, unedifyingly sarcastic, etc etc. i mean its not that they have all been eradiacted (by def of our HP5 lecture week 6) although im inclined to believe that they are in the process… at the moment they are being eliminated (again by def of HP5 week6)-as in under stringent (week6DMF lecutres) control they are manageable.. and that is the work of the HS! i find it disturbing and i am reminded of how horrendously annoyingly arrogant i must have been and i strive now to be less of that and more of Christ- edifying and loving…

 but i need help

 i need help to love the person behind the ‘behavioural phase’ at the present season because people can change… i believe and i pray that harm will not have been done to others all around before that change comes… and i also pray that i would not contribute anymore to this spirit-destructing act … help me o God… please.