passing the baton

091009. A-night 2009.

handing over to the next blessed generation of Committee- all 9 of them plus the Trinity= 12, the number for perfect administration. i am excited!

the night was less emotional that i thought. nothing bad about that… just that i had imagined it differently… but perhaps knowing that i will be hanging around for the next year makes a difference. the latter will be greater. Amen

it feels… like how i perceived giving birth is like. watching the women ‘expel’ the baby which she has been carrying for 9 months (normally)… and having to trust that the baby will grow well, because ultimately the baby grows up to a child to an adolescent to an adult.. and s/he makes her/his own choices. once again medicine has come to be a good analogy-ist.

This song was a gift from the incoming comm to us:

“It’s been a long two years.
It’s time to smile we’ve made it this far just like you said.
Just like you said we would.
There are no more tears.
We’ve used them all so now we’ll rely on our laughter,
And the faith that pain gives joy.

I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
Is now passed on to me I need to wear it like you always do.
Like you always do.

This far from home,
It doesn’t feel as far when I know you’re doing well.
Distance is what you make it.
The distance is what you make it.

I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
Is now passed on to me I wear it like you always do.
I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
(I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through)
Is now passed on to me I wear it like you always do.
(Is now passed on to me)
Like you always do.

I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through
(I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through)
Is now passed on to me I wear it like you always do.
(Is now passed on to me)
I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through’
(I hope that you can see the strength that pulled us through)
Is now passed on to me I need to wear it like you always do.
(Is now passed on to me)
Like you always do.”- Copeland

He’s Able

‘i cast all my cares upon You,

i lay all of my burdens down at Your feet,

anytime i don’t know what to do,

i cast all my cares upon You’

‘my Jesus is able to calm the seas when they rage

my God is the answer in my weakness He reigns… i will bow.

Jehovah Jireh You are my Provider i will bow

Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End, i will bow”

‘He’s able, He’s able i know He’s able

i know my God is able to carry me through.’

too many thoughts swirling, from a simple dinner to heart-wrenching conversation. how did it happen?

‘why does (it) always end with such ‘grunting-ness’? (Lim 2008 )

shesighsheavily.

happier things: ABCDEFG(H)! ; A buddy for ClinicalSchool; Reminder of being a DOTK + the break-through to spring of living waters from within (REV 2008)… there is always hope

on people worth journeying with….

… those that encourage you to ascend the hill of the Lord, not camp at the foot of the hill

to be 2 Cor 3:18

how?

how do you lead leaders especially when they are your peers?

how do you become an armour bearer truly without being the ‘nag’?

how do you convey what is in your heart in the best effective/respectful/loving way without losing the impact of the message?

how do you enter into a time of rest with passion not passiveness?

how do  you know that the cry of your heart is genuine and not something of the flesh?

how do you find the way to the higher place after one closed door (ref Luke 7)?

how?

realising that all the how-dos refer to self…. i can’t… the  ME- cant but the Spirit…

*more of Your Spirit Lord, more of Your power Lord, i need more of You…..now,please

Jesus… You are my hero!

ohmygoodness ohmygoodness!

i had the craziest 45 mins of my life thus far

okay.. background: functions was going to give us NDH  for the next few weeks.. BUT they pulled out last minute this week and by the time i found out and tried to make a booking with the University, it was too late for UniRoomBookings to organise everything. SO for 45 mins we were left with NO venue. MURoomBookings just told us to have the meeting cancelled…. so i panicked (i wished i didn’t) but i did.. and i called JonC and TtheP… and we had thought of alternatives… but were met with “sorry, we’re all booked out…”

so in the midst of waiting and making phone calls, i started to really pray and focused.. and put some worship on.. and then a thought came -HolySpirit [rem. living by the Spirit] and i just started to remember the times that God came through for us and i told God that i believed He is more than able to come through for is this time round…

so the thought was to explore trinity college: i got the number off the website and called the conference booking management- praying that it was possible we use the EvanBurgeRoom. so i spoke to the guy and guess what?! We can use the EvanBurge Room- it has about 100-150 capacity and it is available this Friday from 5.30pm to 10.30pm and as i spoke to the building conference manager who is a Christian from a local church, we had a friendly chat about OCF and he asked me what church i was from and stuff.. and the flippin’ fantastic bonus was because we were a Christian Club, he gave us a DISCOUNT!!!!  it is way cheaper than a lecture hall.. and i think more condusive space AND IT IS ON CAMPUS.. and yeah he says it is even possible we booked it regularly.. PRAISE GOD PRAISEGOD!

i don’t know what else to say. i am in awe

i  look back and remember what i was singing during my QT this morning:

“My Jesus is able to calm the seas when they rage

My God is the answer in my weakness He reigns”

Amen

p.s my devotional today was 2 Corinthians 1: 1-11… talk about put-into-practice

8 We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters,^{[ b]} about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. 9 In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. 10 And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again . We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us. 11 And you are helping us by praying for us. Then many people will give thanks because God has graciously answered so many prayers for our safety

p.s. reminder- live by the Spirit

WOW (x2)

NO! it is NOT WorldofWarcraft or WarorWorldcraft.. whatever games think.. it’s …

Words Of Wisdom (on) Walking On Water

yup at IP, that was my revelation-WoW

i got reminded of when Peter was walking on water.. Matt 14 i think.

So there the disciples (Peter included) were in a boat crossing the lake without Jesus (He was spending time with God) and then outofnowhere a HUGE storm came.. so huge that experienced fishermen were panicky…

**what were they really afraid of? i often wonder what they were thinking during that moment:
- shouldn’t have followed this Rabbi, how can He let us die like this?
-i wish i told my parents how much i loved them?
-oh look it is a (insert species of fish)
-is that a leak in the boat?
-ewww, men are smelly when they are wet..
haha okay those are like my randomnest thoughts… but i wonder what they were really thinking… back to the story

so in the midst of all this panic they saw something… a ghost they think.. so they scream in terror (come on, we’re talking about men here!) … but Jesus said that He was there with them…”Do not be afraid..”

Only one dared to ask if it really was Jesus- Jesus, their Rabbi, the one they have given their life to follow- “is it You, Lord?” he asked, i suppose, while trying to keep water out of his eye. “if it is You, bid me come.”

“Come”

**for a moment, i believed the magnitude of this present catastrophe faded [And the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace] and all he could see, all his focus was on Jesus, his Rabbi, the Messiah.

So he got out of the boat, first looking toward Jesus and was getting along fine… but then the Bible says that he then saw the wind and the waves and the panic return and this time it was, “JESUS! HELP!” before Jesus reached out; rescued him and get this: walked with Jesus through the storm… asked Peter why he doubted while in the storm [something that will change his life. wanting to speak into Peter and bring him to the next level of faith and trust in Christ] and it was only until they climbed into the boat…and then the storm stopped.

** what made Peter turn to look at the winds and the waves? could it be the voices of the other disciples: DON’T DO IT! YOU’LL DROWN, PETER! COME BACK!

Jesus did more than rescue him out of his situation- He spoke into Peter’s life… Note that Jesus did not pull Peter out of the predicament but walked through it with him [Yea, though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death...] and taught him while he was in the storm and then after that, the storm passed…and everyone worshipped Jesus!

our testament of God’s faithfulness can only come out from situations we have had to walk through, lessons learnt during the hard and dark times… it is always the darkest just before dawn comes… which will glorify His Name and lead others into worship…

Another thought: the disciples had just seen the feeding of the 5,000 -an absolute miracle.. but why were their faith still so weak?

they are between miracles.. after this they were to see more healings, more deliverances, more breakthrough… did i think they were ready?  not really..

reminds me that my God is more than just mighty to save.. He can take me onto higher heights.. more than just salvation but also sanctification

i love You, Jesus. Thank You.

Postera Crescam Laude

for the esteem of future generations
as i was informed (and have heard before)

Each of us goes through different season. and why are we surprised? the writer of Ecclesiastes has already warn told us about it in Ecc. 3: there is a time for everything, a season for every thing under the sun..

what is this season?

is it one of rapid growth and spurting out leaves and branches?

is it one of pupal growth only you and your Maker is entitled to know?

is it one where it is quiet harvest of righteous living?

is it one where you arise and shine?

so manymanymany questions: how would i know?

by seeking Me, and then I will tell you things that you do not yet know. Call Me-Jer 33.3

and once again, i am rescued