restless (already?!?)

so im feeling somewhat restless today. don’t know why… could be because:

1. im going home soon (yay for family, friends, Church, Mercedes, Camry, food, 53cents petrol, ASTRO, HuaHo… etc).. and long list to do before (Clean house, buy stuff,sort out bills-termination and restart, clean car, etc!)

2. the computer in my room busted (guilt perhaps)

3. Audrey is coming soon!

4.everyone is EVERYWHERE (and i have this silly OCD about wanting to know about everything.. sigh)

5.MUOCF 2008- things to pray for, sort out, etc.

6.need to plan meet-ups with ppl at my limited stopover venues (limited time and it’s get organised or miss out)

7. the need to breath and enjoy life!

things in the immediate future:koorong,preston market, bismi

Yay and Praise God for the SHAC position in Flemington [yeah baby!]

now, if only Stata is so kind

p.s. YDM is having another girls night.. ohsogood (even if im not there)!

how?

how do you lead leaders especially when they are your peers?

how do you become an armour bearer truly without being the ‘nag’?

how do you convey what is in your heart in the best effective/respectful/loving way without losing the impact of the message?

how do you enter into a time of rest with passion not passiveness?

how do  you know that the cry of your heart is genuine and not something of the flesh?

how do you find the way to the higher place after one closed door (ref Luke 7)?

how?

realising that all the how-dos refer to self…. i can’t… the  ME- cant but the Spirit…

*more of Your Spirit Lord, more of Your power Lord, i need more of You…..now,please

plain

today was one day when i thought i wish i was more creative. i happened to look into someone’s book (with them there) and there were beautiful drawings by that person… so creative, carefree … it was children’s book potential…. and i was like envious.. (yes the yucky green monster)

but this song came to mind: Plain-by Zoegirl

You are jewel you’re a treasure
You are one of a kind
And you shine just as bright
As the stars in the sky
You’re a rare kind of wonder
Created just right
So keep your head up no matter the pain
Theres nothing about you thats plain

ramblings of a childinneedofahug/international unistudent

i suddenly miss home verymuchly as i browse through the photos on the YDM blog.

i realise how much i miss home and also how i wish i could be back there with everyone else.. but im not..

surely God must have a reason to put me where i am now

“where am i meant to be/what am i meant to do/ what is God’s will for me? “  for now,it is where God has place you

what does it mean when someone asks a pastor to pray for them? does this mean that their prayers aren’t heard?- something i was thinking about as i read Dr. David Y. Cho’s book on the Fourth Dimension… good stuff still learning

many things to do. is time a factor? or is discipline the biggest factor of all?

comp-ed

it never cease to amaze me how the comp does influence how my mood will be.. im happy when the comp and internet and everything is working… when one component is not up to optimal functionality im irked.. Grrr… please God could You please fix my printer so im won’t be crazy…

lesson?

don’t take things for granted

make more money in future so can just chuck and buy new one each time it happens

get a boyfriend who is comp-whiz but not nerd

stay close to home with daddy who can fix it

learn to fix it myself (with much prayer)…what happen to computer-genes?

weather affects mood…and yet….

ugh. the crraziness of weather… why the nice, gloomy after-rain weather when im in uni trying to stay awake during the lecture AND make sense of what the person with the mic is trying to say… i really pray for BRIGHT weather now and maybe just a tinge warmer since i was running a bit late this morning.. yup in the 8am lecture craze… 8am to 1pm.. 4 lectures… 1 very exhausted-uni-student-on-a-warmer-lecture-seat  :p

yet i will press on because You have called me here and Your word for today says in You, i am MORE THAN A CONQUEROR! i will get thru today and love it..  oh, i pray for the strength to get me through the day… with Your grace….

and i so thank You for the song!!!

“Pray”

I know that you think you can’t pray after that mistake
but I know it’s the only way you can make it better
And I know situations get too much for you to take
and you feel like you’re gone break and it makes you say

[Chorus]
I can’t take it
When will things get better?
I’m so frustrated, but it’s gonna be okay cause
you’ve got someone in your corner
Who’s gonna be there for ya
Just fall on your knees, say a prayer and receive

When the world feels like it’s on your shoulders (I pray, you pray, we pray)
When your life seems like its upside down (I pray, you pray, we pray)
When your lonely nights are getting colder (I pray, you pray, we pray)
I pray, you pray no matter how dark the day

I know you think you’ve gone too far and you waited too late
But I know that He loves you and there’s no love greater so
And I know that it’s hurting and you want your pain to end
And you feel like you can’t win and it makes you say

[Chorus]

Our Father which art in heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
All you gotta do is say

and this one

Yours is the Kingdom, the power, the glory forever -planetshakers