robbed no longer

the past week was crazy to say the least… coming back from a superGod-packed atmosphere of incredible word, worship, powerofGodinaction and miracles should have left me pretty pumped and ready to take on the world

but then it hit- the nauseated feeling, the heaviness, the cloggedupness, the wanting to just curlupinbedforeverandnotseeanyone… yup! i got sick like majorly and i was upset because i had thought, “this isn’t how it is supposed to be!?!?!what in the world was happening?”

and so going through the motion of going to classes and trying my best to recover/not be seen in such a defeated state drained me completely (not to mention that the closetofreezingtemperature did not help much)…

in the beginning, i thought i had the “license” to feel this way (of course, blame Sydney and traveling and lackofsleep, etc) and i had begun to accept the victimised feeling and taking on the other “baggage” that came with it… and that probably was what set me on a downward spiral that lasted about 5 days until the grace of God knocked me over on the way home

once again, i was reminded it wasn’t my strength, it was His

once again, it wasn’t my life, it was one already (and again) surrendered to Him

once again, it wasn’t me who took away the sin of the world, it was Him

once again, it’s all about Him

once again, i am humbled

humbled because, once again He rescued me and picked me up… nothing that i deserved at anypoint- ever

humbled even more because He opened my eyes to what His BIG plan always was

humbled most-est because He still extends the invitation to be part of the adventure

no longer will i be lied to, no longer will i accept the lies that the enemy says that contradict what the Father has already said. i’m back with the power of the Holy Spirit and no longer will i tolerate the less-than-fullest-life because His word tells me He has come to give LIFE and LIFE TO THE FULL

bring it on. my time is not up yet.

Jesus and i are back

hillsongs

meet with me please, God i pray.

i need You, more and more and more of You

More of Your Spirit.. more of Your power.. i need more of You.

walks home…

You’re the Saviour of my soul
You’re the One i need my strength to carry on
You breathe new life in me
You came to set me free
No one else can take Your place

You’re the Saviour of my soul
You’re the One i’m reaching for
You’re the King of kings
You’re the Lord of lords
No one else can take Your place

You’re the Saviour of my soul
You’re the Saviour of my soul
You’re the end of all my searching
The Beginning of my dreams
The One who knows my hopes and fears
And lives inside of me…

-Youth Alive